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Conquering the world

Posted: January 18, 2018 in Uncategorized

So, I wanted to share a couple things that may help some. I am in the beginning stage of starting Beth Moore study of Daniel. And oh my wonders…. If you haven’t done this study it is beyond my words can describe and with my challenge, it is really opened my eyes a little more.  See I am doing a 16 week weight loss challenge. (The struggle is real people!) Some things she talks about and this is just from Chapter 1 of Daniel by the way. LOL!

“We are over indulged in this world.”
“Who/What is influencing you?”

Friends, food, T.V., games, material things, shopping, etc.
This world wants to make everything about ME, ME, ME.  When we were made to be an assignment to this world. Not a “Robot”. This world makes us like a robot by making us think we can not have any blemishes and have to be perfect all the time. So not true. Everyone is made different for a reason. We shouldn’t be wanting to be like everyone else. God made us different for a reason.  Look at your group of friends.  Do they encourage you, accept you for you, do they share time with you, hold you accountable for things you want to focus on, etc.  And are you doing the same for them?  Some may think others have it all together. But, the ones that have it all together may be struggling more than you realize. We all live in different cultures, zones, etc. There is a reason for that. We are created to conquer this world with God’s word. And to get through any challenge that we are being faced with.

One last quote….. “I don’t want to eat off the world’s table!!!”

I absolutely love this due to the fact that the world gets in our head thinking we need the bad things when all we need is zeroa which means “that which grows from sown seed”. (vegetables, fruits, grains, and bread that was made from grain).  This world shows us if you are “hangry”, enjoy a snickers.  But in reality our body is more than likely dehydrated.  So that snickers bar you just devoured is only going to last a few minutes and then you are going back to the kitchen.  I have these cravings.  There are days where I feel like I can’t eat enough and then there are days when I simply forget to eat.  If I stay busy I am good, but once I sit and am bored it fridge overload.

Everyone struggles differently, always remember that.  Find someone accountable.  Even if it is just a stranger.  Sometimes the ones that don’t know you personally may be the best accountability partner yet.

Have a wonderful and not eat off the world table kind of day!!!!


It’s been awhile

Posted: December 29, 2017 in Uncategorized

Hey y’all!!!  Hope everyone had a Wonderful Christmas with family and friends. 

It has been so long since I have been on here.  Do I have an excuse?  Well, I could blame working full-time on Night shift, I could blame having 2 dogs, 2 birds, a husband and 2 kiddos in the house.  But,  that would be my easy way out.  Why have I been so far from God here lately?  I don’t have the answer except I have not put my time in Him.  So,  Since my excuses are slim but my heart is eager; I will be challenging myself at the start of the year again.  I need to do this for my heart, my husbands heart, and my kids heart.  Also, this effects everyone around me.  I want people to see Jesus when they talk/see me.  

I am going to try to post on here on my journey as I go.  I may be a few days here and there.  I want to take my time and spend my time with God and not the T.V., Facebook, email, etc.  Please bear with me.  God Bless all of you.

The L Word

Posted: July 3, 2015 in Uncategorized


What is that L word that many find so easy to say?  While many others find it EXTREMELY hard to say.  Love.  What is love?

According to the Webster Dictionary…



an intense feeling of deep affection:

a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone:

a great interest and pleasure in something:

affectionate greetings conveyed to someone on one’s behalf.

a person or thing that one loves:


feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone)

like very much; find pleasure in:

Although this definition is a sum up of what love is,

love is something even better than what this definition says.

God’s definition of love is so much better than any human on this earth can give. We may think that the feeling we have is the most powering emotion we will ever encounter. And you are right! If used in the right way. A lot of people rush so quickly to say Love. They have the butterflies of excitement when two people see each other, they think about that person at all times of every day and night, they will do ANYTHING to keep that person from not loving them. Sometimes people change their whole character to have that person “love” them. This is God’s definition of what love is…



Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never fails.

  1. Love suffers long and is kind-  Meaning Love is patient and kind.  Patient!  Yep, God said if you are to love you will be patient.  MEANING- You will be patient on when to say it and also after you say it.  You will be patient with every decision the two of you make.  And He says to be kind also.  Sometimes its hard to be kind when things don’t go “our” way.  That doesn’t mean that we take it out on each other.  If we have something going on we need to be understanding and listen to one another.  And as your listening recite James 1:19 in your head because there will be times when you don’t like the conversation you are having.


  1. Love does not envy or boast-  Envy and boasting is something us humans do.  We like the acknowledgment in the things we have accomplished.  We like recognition in things we have achieved.  This is my opinioned example of why God said not to boast.  Husband comes home from work and is ecstatic to tell his wife his news.  Husband is not aware of what kind of day his wife has had.  As they sit at the dinner table that his wife just prepared, he begins to tell her about his meeting at work and they finally noticed him in the board room.  They are thinking about using his idea and he is just flabbergasted about it.  His wife is excited for him but not showing the same enthusiasm that he is showing.  He starts to argue with her instead of asking how her day went.   Thus, leading into an argument only because he wanted some glory.  Envy is a big word for us humans as well.  Sometimes us mothers envy the family we see that works together to get things done, they pick each other up, support each other in everything, and the mom seems like she has it all together.  First off I want to say; NO SHE DOESN’T.  The support from her family is what makes her seem to have everything together.  Us mothers tend to see the positives in others while we are only looking at the negative in ours.  We need to stop comparing our negatives to everyone elses positives.  Each and every mother has several positives; it may not feel like it but those mothers are envy of you as well.  We all need to Love not envy each other.  Learn from one another instead of sitting back and criticizing because it “looks” like she has it “all together”.

 2. Love does not parade itself-  Love is not arrogant or rude.  I see this a lot in sports.  I am a huge sports nut.  I use to watch MLB, NFL, and NBA all the time.  Constantly watching ESPN.  Now, I see so many arrogant players that I have lost interest.  Not to mention the officiating is terrible.  I see a team on the court, field and then I find that one arrogant player that thinks the only reason they are in the finals is because of him.  It takes a team; not just one to make it happen.  (Go play golf or tennis and then we will talk. LOL) With the arrogance comes with being rude.  No one is good with someone being cocky.  Going up near someone and saying “Ah, did you see that shot?”  is just plain rude.  No one wants to play or be a part of that.  How is that showing love?  We should show respect to one another.  We should not get rude with another player even if yourself is better.  Be respectful.


3.  LOVE NEVER FAILS-  Our love for each other should never fail one another.  If a love is so strong like these verses; there would be no failure.  We should love our spouses with unconditional love.  Is it hard at times?  YES!  Is it doable?  YES!  It takes time.  It takes patience.  It takes faith.

god love

At the beginning of mine and my husbands relationship (second marriage). I had no clue what Love actually was. My first marriage was good but something was always missing. I felt empty. All we did was watch and play sports. Which I loved but the love in the marriage was not there. When my husband now came into my life; I freaked out. He was passionate, loving, caring, forgiving, kind, not rude, and my list could go on and on. At first, I didn’t understand what it was all about. I thought it was a game he was playing with me. I thought of all kinds of things that were negative because I thought he was setting me up to hurt me. It had been 4 years since my last marriage and I wasn’t ready. But, this is the time of my life when I found the Lord and came to know what real Love actually was. My husband was VERY patient and EXTREMELY FORGIVING! I think about all the things I put him through that were unloving and wonder why he stuck around. I put him through a lot that no one even knows. (That will be another blog, lol) Things that I am not proud of but it was things that I learned from and found out who my heavenly Father is and how much He loves me. I had a lot of empty in my heart. I was one who LOVED easy. I could NOT love anyone. I fell in love easy with a lot of different men. But, it was all a game they were playing. So, when my husband came along I was at a point where I was playing the game back to hurt them. My husband wasn’t even a part of the game before, but I added a new player. But, with his patience and his forgiveness; I would not be where I am now. Loving life, Loving husband, and Loving God.

Enjoy this song!! Be blessed with God’s love! It NEVER FAILS!!



I really did not want to write about this, but with it being ALL OVER MY SOCIAL MEDIA, I can’t stand it. I have got to get this off my chest. About a week ago my 15 year old daughter came home from school telling me that one of her FIFTEEN YEAR OLD friends is going to see this fifty shades of grey movie. WHAT? I SAID I DON’T EVEN THINK SO!! My daughter said that she has no desire to even watch it. (I guess me fussing about it for so long has left an impact on her. YAY for me!) But, her friend is 15!!!!!!! And her mom even said it is ok to watch!!! WHAT!!!!!?????? Did I miss something??


All I have been seeing is Fifty Shades of Grey. I’ve seen Facebook friends post that they can’t wait to see this movie. I have had a friend that was told it was a good Christian book and asked me if I knew anything about it. (I straight up told her what I thought.) She was in shock as to her “Christian” friend even told her it was in fact a good Christian book. So to enlighten you on my thoughts, I am going to share with you some reasons why I am NOT reading nor watching Fifty Shades of Grey and instead watching another movie.

Fifty Shades of Grey is categorized as fiction, erotic fiction. One dictionary states erotic as writing, pictures, or film which has “no literary or artistic value other than to stimulate sexual desire.”

According to God, the inventor of sexuality, there is only one person who should stimulate a sexual desire in me and that is my husband. If God desires me to only be aroused by my husband than any other stimulation would be wrong. Jesus said, “Ye have heard that it was said by them of old time, thou shalt not commit adultery:  But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.”  This is also true to women who look at (or read about) a man. I personally think erotica is sinful, plain and simple. This should be enough to convince you but I know there is a lot of people that need more so…


This picture annoys me because I have heard these conversations all the time from women.  So women can do whatever and men can’t?  Why do you think the men do it? Women have some respect and dignity toward your man!

 How does it make you feel when your man looks or reads about porn? Can you honestly sit there and let your man enjoy getting aroused by another woman? It hurts my heart just to think of that as a possibility. Us women have a hard enough time with self-esteem issues without trying to compare themselves to “perfection” created by a professional makeup artist, photo shop, etc. And your husband/fiancé/boyfriend doesn’t deserve to be compared to a false idea of manhood either. If you don’t like being compared to the false women; don’t do it to your man!!

The Bible clearly says that lust is harmful and warns us to flee from it. (Ephesians 5:3, Galatians 5:16, Psalms 101:3) Not surprisingly, neuroscientists warn us about effects that lust, erotica, and pornography have on the human brain and body. Over time the human body becomes conditioned to self-gratification. ARE YOU UNDERSTANDING THIS?? These effects are physiological. In the beginning a little erotica may give you a desire for your spouse but over time it will turn sex into a self-satisfying criteria. If you associate arousal with your spouse, their kiss, their scent, over time, will turn you on. However, if you open your focus to an endless chance of sexual images, that is what it will take to turn you on. You’ll become less interested in real sex with your husband. The fact of the matter is, erotica robs you of the pleasure real sex can bring.


The Bible exhorts us to be intentional about controlling our thoughts of life, because we are what we think! Too often we fail to remember that our minds and hearts are programmed by what we listen to, watch and read. Romans 12:2 cautions us “…be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.” II Cor. 10:5 says, “Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;”

We should be hating sin the way God hates sin. He hates sin because it is contrary to HIS perfect and holy nature. Sin causes separation between ourselves and GOD. And that separation has SERIOUS CONSEQUENCE: damnation in Hell, eternally separated from God. Jesus suffered for your sins on the cross so you wouldn’t have to. He died and rose again so that you can be forgiven from your sins!! God is not trying to keep you from doing good things but HE wants what is best for your life. Do you really think that this movie/books, that has been called “soft porn” and filled with erotica, is best for you? I DON’T THINK SO.

Now I am all about spicy and exciting sex-life WITHIN IN MY MARRIAGE!! All of us humans have a void in us. We have a desire to fill that void. The only thing that can fill that void is GOD. He is the void in our soul that only God Himself can fill.

The movie that I will be watching will be in the next blog…. Stay tuned!!!

Wake up singing

Posted: January 6, 2015 in Uncategorized

Do you ever wake up and have a certain song that you are singing?  I woke up this morning and I was singing this wonderful upbeat song…

Isn’t this a Beautiful day?  The Lord has blessed us with another day.  Your job here on earth is not finished yet.  Let’s start the day singing and reminding ourselves that our job here on earth is not yet finished.

Think about why the Lord blessed you with a song in the morning.  He knows what is going to happen, He knows who your going to run into, He knows if it will fall into one of those hectic mornings; where a good song will help you through it.  Thank God for the song and to help you throughout the day.

Psalm 66 1-4

Make a joyful noise unto God, all ye lands:

Sing forth the honour of his name: make His praise glorious.

Say unto God, How terrible art thou in thy works! through the greatness of thy power shall thine enemies submit themselves unto thee.

All the earth shall worship thee, and shall sing unto thee; they shall sing to thy name. Selah

OH, and FYI… God doesn’t care if you sing out of tune!!!!!

I hope you all have a beautiful day!!

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Need to VENT?

Posted: November 4, 2014 in Uncategorized

Ever think about that friend or family member that does not know God?  What about the friend/family member that believes in God but does not live out God’s word?  I have a lot on my mind.  But, the tricky part is… How do I talk to them?  How do I get the people that I love and care for to accept Christ as their Savior?  How do I talk to a friend/family member about God when they know my past?

These are questions that I struggle with on a daily basis.  I have friends and family that don’t know God.  I have people close to me that claim they are believers but don’t dig into scripture to know how to live like God.  How can many say they are Christians and not do anything with their faith?  Why are we so subjective to keeping our mouths shut just because we are “embarrassed” to talk about God.

WELL… I am here to tell you that I am FED UP with people telling me that I should keep my mouth shut!! I have never been one to keep my mouth shut! (If you know me personally, you already know this).  But, seriously! Us “Christians” won’t speak up because we are so afraid of the let down from the other end.  I am to a point in my life that I don’t care what you think of me.








SO, judge me if you want. But, there is only one Judge that I am fearful towards and that is my heavenly FATHER!!  So, SUE ME! I didn’t lose my quirkiness just because I have been saved! I am THE SAME PERSON I ONCE WAS (In the flesh).  GET OVER IT!!!





Why do I seem so angry in this blog?  Well, one because I am fed up with people telling me false teachings.  AND, I am fed up with people telling me that I should stay quiet because people take offense of what I say!!! What about my feelings, what about Christ’s feelings, what about other Christians?  Do we not count?  Do we have to coward down just because the world thinks that we should just accept everything in the world and just get over it!!!!

WELL I DON’T AND I DO NOT ACCEPT!! And to be honest I am surprised God has not did a Sodom flashback.  This world is exactly that story!! (Genesis 19:1-29) It’s corrupt with men relations with men, women relations with women, rape, poverty, lies, thieves, etc.  (And just because I missed something doesn’t mean that your out of the dark!)  I am fed up with accepting all this world thinks is ok.  IT IS NOT OK!!!

CHRISTIANS!!! It is time for you to face the facts.  You will not be heard if you don’t open your MOUTH!! God gave you a mouth and a voice and HIS WORD to USE IT!! Not coward down and say nothing just because you don’t want a heated discussion and make an issue.  (Your saying God is an issue!?)  God placed you in a position to SAY SOMETHING! Stop being arrogant and SPEAK!

What do you think God wants you to do?  He says repeatedly to make disciples.  Well, how you going to do that with your mouth shut?  How are you going to do that staying in your home?  Get out there and do something for GOD and stop thinking you are more important.

Some scriptures to pray over and put them in your heart.

1 Corinthians 13

Ephesians 4:15

1 John 3:18

James 1: 19-27

Please take the time to look these up!!

Here is a song that struck me hard! I have heard it many times and understood it but tonight… I am fed up with not speaking just because I feel like I am not educated enough.  I am OVER THE EXCUSES THAT US CHRISTIANS HAVE!!


35 years!

Posted: September 20, 2014 in Uncategorized

I usually don’t celebrate on my birthday.  But, today I want to celebrate God!  God made me with His hands in my mother’s womb.  He created me with uniqueness and dedication.  He took His time to make me the way He needed me.  He took special care in my features, making all the hair that I have on my head, making sure that I had His beauty in me.  I did not know Him quite yet but He showed me so much love already.  35 years ago today, He blessed me with seeing His creation that He has made for me (for all of us).

He blessed me with my parents.  I thank them for having me.  I could not imagine having any other parents.  They have taught me life lessons, even when they thought I was not listening.  They continue learning lessons daily in my life. And, I thank them for giving me life and keeping me as their own.  I could not imagine my life any different.  Sure, I have my regrets and pain and sorrow.  But, they have made me into what God formed me to be.  STRONG!! CONFIDENT!!  LOVING!!

Today, I want to say thank you to my parents and especially to God for making me who I am today.

35 YEARS today and more years to come!!  Can’t wait to be with You Lord!! Just another of the many blessings that you have blessed me with.

Just a funny video of Tim Hawkins below.  Enjoy!!

Messy Families

Posted: September 8, 2014 in Uncategorized

Do you ever wake up and wonder “Why did I even wake up today?” 

I have these days often.  I wake up and it seems as though my robotic self starts the day off the exact same way at the exact same time.  I do the same walk path in the house every morning.

Turn off alarm, open back door for the dogs, turn on keurig maker, go to the bathroom, feed dogs, let dogs out again, calm dogs down, grab my cappuccino that I forgot and now its cold, do devotion with daughter send her to school and then BAM!! It hits you like a ton of bricks…. You think to yourself this repetitive crap is getting old.  What kind of changes could I make? 

So, you revamp your schedule, throw in some alone time, put your workout in first, go to the bathroom first, etc.  But, then you realize that you are back to your same old schedule. Why?  Because it worked, you put time and effort into making that schedule.  It has worked for so long that it has made your mornings go easier and you realize now that your morning chores are getting done faster than when you first started the schedule in the first place.   Because, let’s face it, the “new schedule” you just tried to pull off crashed on you.  Going to the bathroom first led  to the dogs barking intensely louder than ever before causing you to have a headache.  You then, let the dogs out only to forget to shut the alarm off and your head is in serious pounding mode at this point.  By the time you even get to do the devotion with your child you are not even in the mood.  You just want to go back to bed and start the day completely over and it has only been an hour since your feet hit the floor. 

(just for humor)

Does this remind you of anyone???    A MOTHER!!!

Mom’s why do we do this to ourselves?  We make a routine and stick with it and it works.  Why do we want to change it?  I will tell you what I think…  We see the other moms that seem with it.  We get jealous of there ordinance in their family.  The mom looking fabulous in her CLEAN clothes (no stains from morning kids mess), her husband is well dressed, and how does she get those kids with the perfect wrinkle free clothes on, no food on the kids faces, and their hair is not going every which way but the right way!!! I WANT TO BE THAT MOM!!! HOW AND WHERE DO I SIGN UP???  Is there a 101 class for that?

We desire to have it all together.  We love when plans go the way we think them out.  We start to look up other moms schedules and print them out.  We try to live our life like someone else’s thinking they have it all together.  Then the craziness starts in… WHY IS THIS STUPID SCHEDULE NOT WORKING??  I PRINTED THIS OFF IN HOPES TO TURN INTO THIS NO ERROR FAMILY!!! Next, thing you know you are ripping up the schedule and saying “I GIVE UP!”  You feel no hope for ordinance in your household. 

I am here to tell you that your family is perfect with all the flaws.  I myself love seeing kids with scratches on their legs, dirt on their cheeks, hair flowing outward from their head like they have some kind of electric force about to explode from their body, and clothes on that you wonder if they are colored blind or they went dumpster diving.  These “flaws” (as the world would say) tells me that these children are exploring, they are getting their hands dirty learning this creation God has made them.  The parents are teaching them to be INDEPENDENT!! This is a family of complete ordinance.

(how cute is this?)

Now, don’t get me wrong… I am not saying go dip your kid in a mud hole and send them on their way. (Even though that would be fun, and not saying that it has never crossed my mind would be a lie.) But, we all have someone that comes to our mind that is the “perfect” family. 

In reality we all have flaws!!!!

We are not perfect.  We are far from that.  Think about how boring that would be if we were perfect?!  We would be those robots we hate to be in the mornings.  You didn’t like it to begin with so you changed.  And look where it got you…IN A MESS!!! 

Next time you think about the other family and how they do things, think about how your family would feel about those changes.  Would it benefit, would it cause issues, would it even work out?  Their schedules are going to be different from yours.  You may be a stay at home mom/dad, or your work hours are different.  If you plan on making a schedule sit down and plan it out first.  I recently did this and there are some things I still need to move around.  And that’s ok because we are not trying to impress someone else, we are just simply trying to get everything done on a daily basis .  This way we don’t forget to have time with God and each other.  And of course time to clean our messy home.

Because our flaws are our messy families pride and joy.  God made us all different to help one another and be messy together.

Now where is that MUD HOLE??

Joshua 24:15:  “And if it is evil in our eyes to serve the Lord, choose this day who you will serve, whether the gods your fathers served in the region beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you dwell.  But as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.”


Psalm 139:14 “I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.  Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.”

dad laurie grandkids(2011)

Today, I would like to take time from all the busyness in the world and wish my daddio A very Happy Birthday!!

dad and laurie with aj(AJ’s birth 2004)

There have been times where we don’t see eye to eye on things.  But, at the end when everything has blown over he has always been there for me.  He has always been at least a phone call away.  Instead of writing out a whole long paragraph of why my daddio is the best, I will just make a list of some very few things of why I think he is the best.

dad and laurie

1.  He is a provider. (Workaholic)

2.  He taught me how to grow up. (Just Be ME!)

3.  He disciplined me. (That ONE spanking was all I needed to know not to disobey!!)

4.  He communicated with me. (Oh, some of those lectures!!)

5.  His food concoctions are the best. (I can’t even narrow it down to a few, they are all the best!)

6.  He introduced me to scary movies. (Freddy Kruger was the MAN, and Chucky!)

7.  He taught me how to fish. (Thank you for getting my line of the trees.)

8.  He taught me how to hunt. (Thanks for getting my squirrel out of the tree.)

9.  He just took time to spend with me. (Ping pong, calling, playing catch, etc.)

10.  He taught me to be tough. (Thank you for pulling my leg hairs when I was younger.)

dad and AJ


Dad, you are my hero!  We may have our differences, but that is what makes our relationship strong.  Every time that I had an issue, you have always been there to listen.  Yea, I may not like what you tell me (I’m stubborn) but you tell me what I need to hear.  You are the one who puts me in my place when I need it.  You are the one who let’s me know when I am wrong when I am trying to tell you I am right. (Wonder where I got my bull headedness from????)  If it was not for you putting me in my place, I would think I was perfect and always right.  You have helped me through more than I have probably said thank you for.

I thank you for taking me under your wing when I have needed it.  I thank you for all the memories we have shared and the time we spend together.  We may have started off life a little rough but the last 8 years we have grown to know each other and I could not ask for a better father that God provided me with.

me and dad

“Love never gives up, never loses faith, always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.” (unknown)

Thank you for being by my side after I was saved and changed for the better.