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It’s been awhile

Posted: July 2, 2015 in Life


It was brought to my attention yesterday that I had not been writing on my blog.  To be honest, I didn’t think anyone was reading them.  After all I have asked some family and friends to follow my blog and get their input and I still have yet to receive that.  So, I slowly stopped writing in my blog.  My son brought it to my attention that he had not been receiving my blogs.  And he asked why?  I told him simply that I had not written in awhile and just eventually forgotten about it.  Which led me into remembering how it was when I did blog….

As I sit here this morning I wonder through my heart searching for answers to this lost world.  There is so much going on.  So much ungodly things that has led me into an anger stage in life.  I can’t wrap my head around how our Heavenly Father must feel.  I have been thinking about God’s wrath upon our nation as it is going down hill fast. I go back thinking of the story told about Sodom and Gomorrah being set a blazed from all the sin in the city.  It is frightening how most of this world is not scared of fire coming from the sky.  It is frightening to see people around me not frightened by what God’s wrath can do to our nation.  Does He want to do this to His children? NO!  But, should He let all the corruption keep going and see His FAITHFUL CHILDREN suffer?

A lot of people I run into say that God would not do these things, He is a loving God, if He is “so called” a loving God then why would He send us to hell, etc.  Well, for one, God would do these things.  But, on a side note, HE DID NOT do these things.  I know confusing right?  The fact is, we did it to ourselves.  See, God doesn’t send us to hell, we send ourselves there.  It is our responsibility to get ourselves out from the “hole” we dug ourselves in.

To be able to dig ourselves out, we first need to believe that God exists.  Do you believe that God exists?  Do you believe that Jesus came down to earth and lived a perfect life with no sin and sacrificed Himself so that you may be saved from your sin?  If you do, THAT IS WONDERFUL!!!!! If not, I hope and pray that someone in your life will touch your heart and show you what Jesus has done for you.  He loves you no matter what you have done in your life.  He made you. He loves you. And He wants you to come to Him with open arms.

Next thing, once you believe that Jesus came and died for you and believe that God raised Jesus from the dead, YOU ARE NOW SAVED!!! CONGRATULATIONS AND WELCOME TO THE FAMILY BROTHER/SISTER.  It’s as simple as that.  This is something you confess with your mouth, and believe in your heart that God has raised Jesus from the dead.  How awesome and simple is that?  The belief in your heart is righteous, and the confession from your mouth is made for salvation.

If you have just asked God to help you and change your heart and told Him that you believe in Him, then please go talk to your nearest pastor.  Talk to him about confessing to God and what your next steps should be.

1. Getting baptized. And getting a bible.  And if you need one, I will send you one if you need.  Just let me know.

2. Setting you up with someone to help you continue your path.

Remember once you have confessed to God you will be on a battle field with satan.  Satan is now furious that you have chosen the Lord instead of him.  He will show you all the temptations that you have done in your life.  He will remind you of how much fun you had.  He will have your “friends” asking you do things that you once did that you know in your heart is wrong.  This will be the first leap and challenge of your faith.


My past “friends” were I thought was a blessing to me.  They seemed to always be there for me.  But, as I look back, they didn’t care who I went home with, how much I drank, what I was doing, etc.  They were only around when they needed a drinking buddy, someone to go to the bar with, someone to drive them somewhere.  I was used!  They could have cared less about me drinking too much or who I was bringing home or going to.  It was all in what the world was doing so we had to do it also.  But, I learned that God is a loving God and is always by my side.  He did not want me hurting the way I was.  So, when I got saved, I cleaned out my friends.

I will say cleaning out my friends was the hardest thing I had to do.  But, if I stayed where I was I was not living for God I was still living for myself.  This is why I HIGHLY recommend someone help guide you and help you along the way.  And don’t ever feel ashamed about what you have done in your past.  God has forgotten about it.  You will never forget about your past, but it will always help you remember about where you have been and where you are today.





Hardened Heart

Posted: May 27, 2015 in Life

Do you ever feel like you are doing everything in your power and it still doesn’t feel like it’s enough? Have you ever had someone yell at you for no apparent reason and you get angry at them for yelling at you? Or do you find yourself finding things around the house to get mad about?

Welcome to my world….

I am in need of prayer warriors. I have a lot of anger that is apparently wanting to be released but it never has anywhere to go. Lately, I have been reading the bible, doing a bible study, praying more, etc. Also, I have been searching up a lot on sex trafficking and have found a place in my area that I can volunteer for. So, where the heck is this anger coming from if I am doing everything I can to be and stay with Jesus?  I have no clue!

Why am I even mad? Good question… I don’t have a slightest idea why. I have been seeing things and hearing things that I don’t want to see. The devil has been playing with my mind and I want him gone. I seriously can’t take this anger. This has everything to do with my heart. The devil is working overtime to attack it. (In a way I feel privileged because he will attack when you are doing things Godly but…) I feel alone, lost, confused, hurt, depressed, and the list could go on.   I see other people happy and wonder why can’t I have that? I don’t know where my happy went. There is times when I feel like my husband married the wrong person. I am the wrong person to even be a mother. I wonder why God granted me with motherhood/step-motherhood.

Days go by and I feel like I fail as a mom. I am particular about how chores are done. I like my home to look nice. And if they are not done properly I flip out. I guess all mothers go through this, thinking she is not good enough. Just yesterday my oldest daughter came home after I had checked her room. I saw that she did not dust (moving things kind of dust). I asked if she did and next thing I know we are arguing because she said she did it and I simply said no you didn’t. She asked to look around to make sure she got it and to be honest, I only looked at her T.V. and just said its fine. I was tired of arguing about it. I know she probably only touched on the T.V. but I was not going to finger touch everything to make sure. I am over the arguing.

I am not sure what is going on in my heart but I am over the devil trying to rule over me. I have had enough of this anger bottling up. I am tired of being a “fake” family. It’s time that I smack this devil square in between the eyes and show him who is boss.   I don’t want to be the “fake” family when we are at church or in front of others and not speaking the truth. My heart hurts for the love in our family. How is a family supposed to show love to others when we can’t even love each other in our own home?

It starts with God! I know this and the whole family knows it. But, are we doing anything about it? I am not sure. I have prayed for my heart, I have prayed for my kids, I have prayed for my husband to guide me into the person that I need to be. Do I know if anyone else wants this as much as I do???   Yes and No. I see my husband stressed out because I go to him for advice. And the not getting along he can’t stand. I am not being a submissive wife. I am not being a Godly woman. I am not loving my family the way I should.

This is when pride becomes a factor… I see things differently than others do. Maybe it was how I was brought up in the cleanliness stage of life, but I like things how I like them. So, I decided to just take over all the cleaning of the house except the children’s bedrooms. I apparently want my house clean and I know how clean. Whomever is right or wrong, I am going to swallow my pride and try my hardest to be a better person. I am going to live my life through God’s eyes. I am going to pray harder, study wiser, and get my heart softened.

With that said…   I need you! My prayer warriors! I would love for you to pray for God to soften my heart. To lay His hand on me and guide me into the Godly woman that He intended me to be. To lessen my worry about life, to enjoy it instead of stressing about it, to be loving and caring.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8- Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. Charity never faileth:

I hold these verses to my heart. Please keep this in your prayers, if not for me but in your own heart. There is times when we need love more than anything. The world has labeled love differently than God sees love. We should always be seeking for Godly Love not worldly love.

Thank you in advance for your prayers! I hope you have a blessed day and always have God’s love on your side.

Posted: April 27, 2015 in Life


What is joy?

Merriam Webster dictionary states that joy is a feeling of great happiness

: A source or cause of great happiness: something or someone that gives joy to someone

: Success in doing, finding, or getting something.

While all these give us human’s great happiness, I find something missing from the definition.  Jesus!

Jesus has provided us joy through our happiness and our tribulations. He provides an escape when we fall and He provides the feeling of abundant happiness.   In the world we see joy as a baby being born, a wedding ceremony, an adoption, a reuniting of family members. And the list can go on and on. We see our smiles form on one another’s faces as if we don’t have a care what is going on around us. We get lost in the moment. We are in an awe of wonder. I remember the first time I held my son in my arms; he was so little yet so incredibly handsome. My joy for him was out of this world. It was the most happiness I had ever felt in my entire life. My son was something that I felt I did something right in the world that we live in.

In Psalms 100:1 “Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all ye lands.” A lot of people take a joyful noise as just referring to music. But in God’s eyes; His perspective of a joyful noise is praising Him! Think about a marriage. When the husband and wife say their vows they are making a covenant with God. They are telling God that they promise to love one another and care for one another no matter what happens. That they will always be by their side and will never stray. They say this all for the honor of God.


On my wedding day when my husband and I made our vows to one another we promised each other as well as God that we would love each other till the end. We prayed and asked God to become a part of our marriage and that we would do our best to never leave Him. Our voice and actions is making a joyful noise unto the Lord. He is looking down on your life seeing your life full with laughter, happiness, pleasures, family, and friends is something that He cherishes because you are His child.

Speaking of pleasures giving us great joy. Psalms 16:11 says “Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fullness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.” There are also the bad pleasures in this world. God warns us about those that feel like they give us fullness of joy. He tells us in this verse that He will show us the right path. It’s up to us to listen to Him. God gives us a choice of everything that we do. He loves us that much and has enough faith in each and every one of us to choose the right path. We may in our left hand have the bible and in our left have a temptation. It is our choice to decide how to fill up our joy. With God or our own selfish needs that will lead into consequences that we don’t see coming until it is too late.

This leads me into James 1:2-4 “My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptation; knowing this that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire wanting nothing.”

My good old friend James warns us about our decisions. He also tells us that the temptations that we face we should count it all joy? Did you hear that? COUNT IT ALL JOY? Is he crazy? He wants me to be joyful when the devil shows me all these awesome worldly things and I am tempted to follow it? YES!! I know sounds crazy, right? But, think of it this way… Mother is doing all she can to do the right thing in her household. She knows that proverbs 31 woman is almost impossible. But, she knows that her children and especially her daughter is watching her. We mothers have a huge role in our home. Proverbs 14:1 tells us “Every wise woman buildeth her house: but the foolish plucketh it down with her hands.” How many times as mother/daughter relationships develop we feel like we fail as mothers? MANY! I have a teenage step daughter, her mother is not a part of her life due to bad choices that she has made. Now, I feel a burden on my heart for her. I feel like I am her last hope for her to see what a wife and mother is supposed to be like. Do I feel distant from her? Yes! She is going through teenage years and as parents we are the last people on this earth that she wants to “hang out” with. She is still trying to find herself, she is going through puberty, hormones are everywhere, and there is also a young man in her life. As a mother you always want the best for your children. But how do you build up your home when they don’t stay around long enough to do so? Be an example! When your daughter is around show her how to run a house, how to take care of your husband, and also take care of yourself. “But she locks herself in her room and I never see her when she is home?” Trust me I know the feeling. But when she does miraculously come out of her room, take action! Show your husband love, take care of the home you have built and still building. It may be a 2 second, on her way to the bathroom, scene but it is something. Just remember what you teach your children your future grandchildren will probably be taught the same way.


Patience is a key part. James tells us that the trying of our faith worketh patience. Mothers, our children will be there till the end. We have to let them learn and face their own trials. If we continue to pray for them to make the wise decisions they will come around. We have to let our patience have her perfect work. During that perfect work we may be perfect and entire and want nothing. Don’t let the devil try and fill your joy with worldly things. Let God fill your joy with heavenly things. Because if we continue to let the devil fill our joy scale we will continue to want more. We would never be satisfied. But if we let God fill our joy scale HE will help us to be perfect and entire wanting nothing else but HIM!

May our lips always praise God with joyful lips! As in prayer, singing, and actions because HE is always watching and so is our daughters. (Psalm 63:5 “and my mouth shall praise thee with joyful lips:”)

Cry Out To Jesus

Posted: April 18, 2015 in Life, Music

Today I want to share a song with you that hits home for me every time I am going through something.  A lot of us go through trials in life.  Sometimes daily.  Other times in random settings.


My husband and I had not gotten into an argument in a long time.  A couple weeks ago there was a burden in our marriage.  The enemy started attacking both of us.  The enemy knew who to strike first and then lead into a domino effect on the other person.


Immediately there was a burden on our hearts and it was effecting our marriage.  And unlike love gradually building up.  Our disappointed feelings for each other were building up so fast like a C4 explosion.  At that very moment I gathered my thoughts before speaking.  (James 1:19 tells me to be slow to speak, quick to listen, and slow to wrath)  I decided that a long walk would calm me down.  When I first started walking I turned on my music and shoved my headphones in my ear and started taking off as fast as I could.  Automatically this song came on. Cry Out To Jesus by Third Day. I stopped dead in my tracks and started crying.  I immediately started praying and asking God to help our marriage through this pain.  I thanked Him for not letting my anger get the best of me and for me to have the courage to say, “I’m going for a walk!”  Instead of standing there fighting which would have led to nothing.

After my walk and talk with God I realized that He was by my side holding my hand guiding me through this burden that wore on my heart.  He told me that my husband and I need to sit and talk.  With my husband’s work schedule it is hard to get a “stop and sit to talk” moment.  My husband works night shift.  I prayed and asked God to make time for that.  Next thing I knew my husband sent me a text.


First, I want to say that face to face conversations are the best way to go, but in our situation it was impossible.  So, in order for us to get through this and not have the rest of our day go sour, we talked through texting.  By the time we “talked” everything was worked out.  We talked about our temptations in life, our faults, our pains, our thoughts, and what we can do together to fix it.  As we were discussing things I felt God working through both of us.  He showed me how to love my husband.  He showed me how to treat my husband.  God lifted my pain and burden on my heart.

A couple days later my husband and I were having lunch and I told my husband that I won’t be able to forget our bad day but I will look back and see how God worked on both of us.  I told my husband that I was hurt but I forgave him.  I also apologized for not being the wife that I needed to be for him.  He also forgave me. (If your marriage is struggling with something it is NOT just one person’s responsibility of how it got to that point.  IT TAKES BOTH OF YOU TO SHOW LOVE AND IT ALSO TAKES BOTH OF YOU TO MAKE IT FALL.)

During the past week we have been so in love with each other. I can’t get enough of my husband! I have that feeling of the first time we met. The giddy, magical, lost in time feelings. Every time I see my husband I want to run and hold him. My love for my husband has grown over and beyond words can describe. Through God, we both have realized what love in a marriage in all about. We go out of our way for each other, help around the house, study God’s word together, and work more closely to satisfy each other’s needs instead of working on our own selfish needs. I have taken more time in prayer for my husband and our marriage.  I even got on my computer this morning and found a video of my husband playing his guitar singing to me. If that doesn’t melt a wives heart I don’t know what will.


I love you honey and I am so glad God put us together. We make an amazing team! Thank you for all you do for our family!

If you are struggling at something in your life right now, I encourage you to listen to this song, pray for God’s healing, and be obedient to what God tells you.  If you need prayer send me a message, I will gladly pray for you.  CRY OUT TO JESUS!

ENJOY THIS SONG Cry Out To Jesus by Third Day! I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!


Posted: April 13, 2015 in Life


What do you think of when you hear the word…Relationship?  Do you think of marriage, boyfriend/girlfriend, friendship, family, etc?  There are many different views of relationships, but I am referring to one Relationship in particular.  Marriage.  Even the relationships that are just starting to get to know each other.  But, I will be mainly talking about husbands and wives; but this goes to anyone dating also.


Ephesians 5:28- “So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies.  He that loveth his wife loveth himself.”


In today’s world we are taught that when things go wrong in a relationship that you can just get rid of this one and get a “newer model”.  But if you view this way in your relationship; you do not understand the significant bond of a husband and wife.  Marriage is a bond between one another.  You become one.  Check out these two scenarios that I read in the Love Dare book.  Which I highly recommend to all marriages.

“A man’s older car begins having serious trouble, so he takes it to a mechanic.  After an assessment is made, he is told it will need a complete overhaul, which would tax his limited budget.  Because of the expensive repairs, he determines to get rid of the car and spend his funds on a new vehicle.  Seems reasonable, right?”

“Another man, an engineer, accidentally crushes his hand in a piece of equipment.  He rushes to the hospital and has it x-rayed, finding that numerous bones are broken.  Although frustrated and in pain, he willingly uses his savings to have it doctored and placed in a cast, then gingerly nurses it back to health over the following months.  This, too, probably seems reasonable to you also, right?”


Our culture today is more familiar with leaning towards the first scenario in a marriage.  Would you cut off your hand if it was injured?  No, you would do everything you could; no matter the cost to fix your frustration and pain.  This is exactly how we should look at our marriage.  The parts of our own body is priceless and so should our marriage.

Ephesians 5:29- “For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the Lord the church:”

We cherish our own bodies.  We make sure that our body is fed and taken care of.  We must treat our spouse the same way.  When you show love to your spouse, you are showing love to Yourself.   Think about this for a second..  You walk in the door from work, your spouse gives you and hug and kiss, asks you how your day was, and has supper ready on the table.  You lash out at your spouse because you have had a bad day and you just want to be left alone.  And then what happens?  You are arguing the rest of the evening.

Now, let’s take out the lashing out.. you sit down and thank your spouse for the meal that they prepared.  You simply tell your spouse you had an awful day and just want to relax tonight.  You talk about what went wrong and next thing you know your spouse is pampering you for the rest of the night.

Which story do you want to be?  We need to treat each other like we are talking to ourselves.  Take care of each others bodies as you would want to be taken care of.  How do you treat your spouse’s physical body?  Do you cherish it as your own?  Do you treat it with respect and tenderness?  Do you take pleasure for who they are?  Or have you been making them feel like a fool or embarrassed?


Don’t let this world change your focus of your marriage.   Don’t compare it to this culture.  We should treat each other for God’s purpose.  Not our own selfish purpose.  Show the love of two imperfect people who choose to love each other regardless of how this world sees things.

Treat each other well.  Speak HIGHLY of each other to everyone.  And remember to always Nourish, Cherish, and Respect the love of your life.

And the award goes to…

Posted: April 8, 2015 in Life

“Nor of men sought we glory, neither of you, nor yet of others, when we might have been burdensome, as the apostles of Christ.” 1Thessalonians 2:6(KJV)

I can’t think of one person who is not at least a little bit competitive.  We all crave some kind of fame.  Whether it be 15 minutes or a lifetime.  Our human nature is full of selfish acts, that it is hard to not want the attention from doing something that could have an award with it.


When I was younger, I wanted to be the stand out, scholarship winning, parent wishing I was their child superstar.  I was taught to be the best you can be and work your butt off doing it.  It was in my genes.  My father was a all star athlete.  My mom was in the dance part of band.  And they both stood out amongst all the other students.  I was told don’t cry about anything.  Suck it up and move on was our motto.

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Now, I want my days where people see me and know that I am a Christ follower.  I want people to automatically say, “She is a Christ follower!” when they hear my name.  I don’t want the glory from sports anymore.  Yes, I still will do my best.  But, sports is not a priority to me.  God has become something that I thrive for.  I compete to be the best Christ follower I can be.  I want people to remember me as being on fire for God.  I want them to remember where my love and passion went first.

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And the Christ Follower Award goes to…

Colossians 3:23-24-And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;  Knowing that of the Lord ye shall receive the reward of the inheritance: for ye serve the Lord Christ.

I remember being younger playing sports and I wanted to do my best to impress my daddio when he was able to come watch me play.  It is the same with my Heavenly Father.  I want to impress Him so that He says these words to me from the book of Matthew when I am no longer here on this earth.

Matthew 25:21– “His Lord said unto him, Well done, thou good and faithful servant: thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy Lord.”


I can not wait to see my heavenly Father.  But, I don’t want to disappoint Him either.  We are eager to not wanting to disappoint our parents.  We don’t want to disappoint because we know what follows behind that if we do.  Punishment!  This is why I want to obey my heavenly Father.  I remember my dad whipping my butt for getting in the pond after he told me not to.  After that I was determined not to get my butt whipped again.  We feel that punishment but my heavenly Father’s punishment is much worse if you don’t obey Him.  But, remember that even if you do mess up (which we all do daily)  God is such a forgiving Father.  All you have to do is admit you were wrong and try everything in your power NEVER to do that sin again.  Think about the reward you will receive for doing your best for our Lord.

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I can’t wait to be with my heavenly Father for eternity.  I hope to see you there and meet you worshipping God and enjoying no pain, no suffering, no heartache, no depression, no crimes, no guilt.  Just glorious, endless love with beautiful scenery that we can not even fathom here.  That is the reward I am thriving for!!!

April Fools!

Posted: April 1, 2015 in Life


“Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of His might.  Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.  For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”

Ephesians 6:10-12


It was the best April Fools joke ever!  At least my sister and I thought so when we plotted it out.  My sister lives in Wisconsin along with the rest of my moms side of the family.  At the time I was living in Indiana.  I called my sister up and we started plotting a April Fool’s joke on our mom.  (We try and do this every year, and sometimes not on April Fool’s because she would know).  We talked about my sister just having enough of it up in cheese land and moving back to Indiana.

One April first I called mom asking her what is wrong with Shellie (my sister).  My mom said, “She didn’t seem like nothing is wrong?  Why?”  I proceeded to tell mom that my sister just called me crying and said she had enough of things.  My automatically hung up the phone and called Shellie.  Shellie played along and didn’t answer the first 100 times that my mom tried to get through to her.  Finally, Shellie picked up the phone.  Shellie was with a saddened voice told mom she was moving back to Indiana.  She just couldn’t take it anymore up in Wisconsin.  After about a couple hours of going back and forth with mom. We finally told her, “April Fool’s!!!”   I know it was terrible!  We laughed so hard! But Mom didn’t seem to think it was quite so funny.  Let’s just say out of “respect” we have not fooled her like this again.

It can be fun to play harmless pranks on people.  Especially on days like today.  But when it comes to the devil trying to fool us, it’s no laughing matter.  Even though Jesus won the war with the devil when He died and rose again, satan is still trying to fool God’s people.  He hopes to be the last one standing after the Second Coming.

What does he want?  He wants you.  He wants you to follow him and not Jesus.  He wants you to believe you’re not good enough for Jesus to love.  He wants you to get discouraged when your prayers aren’t answered the way you want.  He wants you to think that being a Christian is boring.  He wants you to think that God’s rules are too strict.  He wants you to think that God is too busy for you.  He wants you to give in to temptation and sin.

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Don’t let the devil fool you!  It’s Jesus-not satan-who loves you.  It’s Jesus who have His life for you!  It’s Jesus who’s preparing a place for you with Him!  The devil hasn’t done a single thing for you– except to bring you temptation, heartaches, pain, and hopelessness.  JESUS has done EVERYTHING for you.  He’s not out to destroy you, but to SAVE you.  AND I’m not foolin’!!

god loves you

Words inspired by He’s got your back by Nancy Canwell

James 1:1-4

Posted: March 5, 2015 in Life

James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ, to the twelve tribes which are scattered abroad. Greetings.  My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations.  Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.  But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

James starts off saying that he is a servant of God.  Not an apostle, not a brother of Jesus, not anything about his family; only a servant of God.  What does servant mean?  Servant is defined as a devoted and helpful follower or supporter.  He starts off stating what he is on this earth for.  James is a devoted and helpful follower and supporter of our Heavenly Father.


With that said… Can you call yourself a servant of God AND of the Lord Jesus Christ?  Are you going throughout your day making sure you are glorifying God?  Or you going throughout your day worried about your friend, spouse, boyfriend, school, bills, work, etc.?  Are you worried to have to please this list rather just pleasing the One and Only, JESUS!  I bet we can all make a list of what we are a servant for.  We can put God on that list but is there really words to put with that?  It should ONLY have GOD on our list.  Why do we feel we can not live a day without hurrying and getting to our phones, checking our emails, going to the store, etc.?  Why does it seem like that is the only thing that keeps us “alive”?  To break it down… Your phone is NOT going to get you to heaven, your email is NOT going to help you get rewarded for your good works, your shopping is NOT going to help you stay right with God.  I say this because I see so many people rely on these things to “live”.  We should be servants of God and God alone.  We should be putting our phones down and thinking about what God wants us to do today.


Next, James talks about the twelve tribes that are scattered abroad.  Who are these twelve tribes?  I have done some research and I have came up with the Commonwealth of Israel.  Which is made up of both Jews and Gentiles who had been made into one nation through the blood of the Messiah.  But, there were some problems in the Commonwealth which made James feel the need in his heart from God to write to them.  Thus, the book of James.

Then we get into verses 2-4…  James tells us to count it all joy when we are faced with different kinds of issues. WHAT?  You know how much stuff I put up with in a days time?  Dirty house, laundry, dogs, meals, bills, car needs fixed, school work needs attention, husband needs his wife, kids need my time. And the list can go on and on.  But, as a homemaker, I am faced with making sure everyone is happy and things are in order.  Sometimes I wonder where my “happy” time is.  I bust my butt around the house daily and I get nothing in return.  But, when someone else does things around the house you better make sure that you say something in order for them to WANT to do it again.  UGH! Yes, we all have those days.  But, count it ALL JOY!!  I should be joyful for the roof over my head to stay out of the cold/hot weather.  I should be joyful for clothes to wash; that means I am blessed with clothes to keep me warm and covered.  I should be over joyed with the bills; this means that I was able to have something I would need/want (electricity, heat, air, phone, internet, car, house).

Verse 3 says “Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.”  Eek.. I would love to have more patience.  I’m sure a lot of us would.  Sometimes it is extremely hard. But with us facing our trials through God we will have faith.  We will see these things differently through God’s eyes.  Not as a burden to HAVE to do chores or pay the bills.  We look at it all as a gift from God.  We would not have clothes on our backs if it was not for God.  We would not have the house to stay out of the cold if it were not for God.  God provided us with these items in our life.  We should be more grateful for them rather than be hasty towards the bills and such we do have.

And verse 4 says, “But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.”  I don’t know about you but, there is a lot of things in life that I want.  But, what is on your “want” plate?  Is it for your kids to grow up and be better at life than yourself?  Is it a better marriage?  Is it less debt?  There are a million things us humans want in life.  But, one thing is for sure; the one thing that we do need is JESUS!

Jesus is what will make your worry go away.  Jesus is the one that will help you have a better marriage.  Jesus is the one that will make your laundry feel like a gift instead of a burdened chore.  Jesus will help you see your bills as a blessing He gave you instead of a waste of money (depending on your bills, I am not talking about credit card debt that you maxed out. I am talking about electricity and such things we need for a house and such.)  If you do have credit card debt and that is a burden, Yes, Jesus can help you through that.  But, you have to listen to Him to get right with your spending.

All in all we need to get right with God.  We need to be able to pray and ask God for help.  He may lead you to someone who can help you.  What are you waiting for?  Start right now and ask God to forgive you for your worries.


Pray with me..

Dear Heavenly Father,

You are almighty!  You are my strength that I need when burdens come my way. Please forgive my selfish acts of not feeling blessed with what You have provided me with.  I have a roof over my head, I have electricity, I have food and yet my soul seems unsatisfied because I have not thanked You for all these gifts.  I don’t want to look at these things as a burden, for if I did I would be telling  You that Your gifts You have provided with are a burden to me.  How ungrateful I must be.  And how hurtful that must feel toward You.  Lord I thank you for my home, food, bills and chores. Lord I know You are a Sovereign God.  I know You can help me through all things.  Help me to always understand my job here on this earth You have given to me.  Help me to always understand that You can take that away at any time.  Help me to be the servant as James talks about in these verses.  Help me to have the patience that I need, to have the perfect work so that I may be perfect and entire wanting Nothing.



Posted: February 11, 2015 in Life


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I am considerably old fashioned. I love my husband because he is too. He is a romantic! He is a lover. He is the one who showed me what true love really is. He showed me what God’s love means and what a wife and husband are supposed to be.

1 Corinthians 13:4-13

English Standard Version (ESV)

4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant

5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;

6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth.

7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.

9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part,

10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away.

11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways.

12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.

13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

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This love is in my marriage and I am forever grateful.  I don’t ever have to wonder about my husband having wondering eyes or fantasizing about another woman.  And he doesn’t have to worry either.  I love my husband with every bit of my heart.  We show each other what Christ’s love looks like through each other.  That is what makes our love so strong.


With all this said; This Valentine’s Day we will be going to the movies.  We are going to watch OLD FASHIONED!!  This is what love is about.  This is what I want my children to understand; that love is God.  I hope you enjoy the trailer and will see you watching OLD FASHIONED!

What real love is!



Posted: January 30, 2015 in Life

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick; but when dreams come true at last, there is life and joy.”

Proverbs 13:12

We tend to think we can do things on our own.  We want things in life to go as we plan them.  For example; pregnancy.  Most couples, after they marry, long for the next step.  Starting a family.  They try for years to get pregnant but no luck.  Next, they start pursuing in fertility treatment, spending years and countless dollars on testing, fertility drugs, surgery, and finally in-vitro fertilization.  Nothing worked.  This is a story I read this morning in my devotion that goes greatly with the verse above.

After all the heart ache they decide to go to a new clinic, she puts her name on a donor list to receive an egg from a younger woman that could be combined with her husband’s sperm and be implanted in her womb.  I can only imagine the heart ache and trials that they are both going through.  After many visits she starts feeling empty.  She is soul-exhausted.  She had came to the end of a road that did not continue.

Then a verse comes to her head;

Seek ye first the kingdom of God… and all these things shall be added unto you.

They were both doing things their way.  They were making it happen in the way the world sees that it be done.  God wanted to be their Provider.  He wanted them to go to Him for what they needed.

God wants us, He desires us, He longs for us.  We expect things from Him, but do we focus on Him the way He focuses on us?  He hears you all day everyday, we rely on Him, but if we don’t do our part where do we stand?  We get angry, discouraged, but was God able to rely on you?

After giving everything to God; the couple listened to His voice and letting Him lead them.  The wife took her name off the donor list.  She began to sense an urge to adopt a child.  They found an organization and they became parents for the first time.  They met their seventeen month old son coming from an orphanage in India.

The child was barefoot, in an ugly T-shirt and ragged black corduroy pants.  He peered sheepishly at his new mother and clung to the chaperone, who was familiar.  They brought a ball and stuffed animal for their son.  Soon their new little boy was snuggled in his new mothers arms, warm and safe, and drifting peacefully to sleep.

The couple stated after a few years that they have felt satisfaction.

It was like God saying “It is finished.”  The mother stated that her life is a testimony to the truth of Psalm 37:4 “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.”

What are your dreams in life?  Are they having a better job, child, money, car, house, etc.  What if we focused on God for these things and like the couple find another solution.TO FEEL SATISFIED!